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the days of are lives are shortining every day. the love for you grows stronger, as i grow weeker with every breath that i take. my life is ending. misserably. i dont want to end this but it must come true. goodbye to all that i shall love. good bye to all that i shall not love. the end is near. as i shead that one last tear.
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[21 Jun 2006|09:57am] |
Hey! I havent ben on here lately. Ive ben really busy with work and all. But yeah, i got a job and i got my learners. woo...
OMG!!! Have any of you seen that movie "A girl like me"? on lifetime. I cried so much. Its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sad. like wow!
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[22 Apr 2006|06:59pm] |
Hey all.
Today i was supose to go to lilys but she had to go to piano lessons. Which sucks. But i went to Richmond with mom and my aunt. Shopping got to love it. i got 2 shirts. Nothen special. One is striped but its yellow and grey. blah~ and the other is just black. And its stretchy. Luv it. no starbucks today. So sad. Im hyper. Dunno why just am. Lalalala... Um...O' Allen sorry fot the other day. I was just pissed at random stuff. Im sorry and i wrote ya back on myspace. I didnt mean to be suck a bitch. Sorry. =/ Um...yeah. Hope all of you all are having a great spring break. I wish i could have went to Italy like zeb did. I could have so fit into his suit case. (did i spell that right?) O'well. I wonder if he took a pic of the pope for me???? dunno. well im just going on so i'll go. L8ter babes.
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[21 Apr 2006|10:02pm] |
Hello again.
Today was good. Im sad that spring break is almost over. Im gonna miss waking up and watching Live with Regis and Kelly, ellen, Will & Grace, Tyra Banks, (wait a wile) Oprah,(wait again) then charmed. I love my ellen, Will & Grace, happy two hours. There amazing. Teddy Geiger was on ellen today preforming. AMAZING if i must say so myself. Hot as always. lol
Im not sure what im doing this weekend. Probably nothen. Maybe hang out with Lily. See her room all painted. Hopefully i'll get to do that. Im supose to get a job at the foodlion in gordonsville. I called them on wed and they said they would call me today. But they didnt. Them crackers. I dont want to work cause it just seems wierd but i really want money. To go shopping. And i need to pay off bills. Well g2g
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Hey all!
Well spring beak is almost over. Blah~ I dont want it to be cause i dont want to have to wake up early. But im so bored i just want to carve my eyes out. Like wow! Ive cleaned so much and messed it up so i could clean again. (i like cleaning a lot and i do it a lot when im bored) But yeah... I started taking my meds yesterday. You supose to take them with food or you get a buz. yeah i found that out this morning. I was bouncing off the walls. Gotta love that prozac. lol. But hopefully it will work. It sure did today. I completly and was actually happy about the whole corey just not talking to me thing. I dunno about him. I mean you tell someone you love them and want to be with them but go and talk and flirt with other people. Its confusing. I gave it a 2nd chance and now im done. Looken for a new heart breaker. But what made me mad was Allen Stanly was talking to him and flirting with him. Hes tellen everyone in school hes straight, but hes tellen corey hes bi. WTF? crazy kid. Right now im bored and trying to get this ipod to work and lookin for hot people on myspace. fun stuff. lol. Well i hope that all of you all have a great rest of your spring break. Ohh and lily...you wanna hang out this weekend? call me.
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[14 Apr 2006|11:26am] |
Well...I havent been on this damn thing in forever...Sucks but o'well. Cause im obsessed with myspace. I only write in this shity thing when im depressed or pissed just to let ya know. Im usually always in a shity mood. And when im happy people want me to be in a shity mood. I dont know why. You would think that your friends would be happy for you that your happy, but im aparently mistaken. Me and corey have been talking again. Things are going good. Were not back together but we are happy. I Love that boy. Seriusly. There is no one in this fucking town that comes even close to him. Cause i hate most people in louisa i guess thats why. I could most likely i'll never date anyone here. Cause they probaly wouldnt want to date me. But o'well. Im happy. And if you dony like that im happy and the fact that corey is the one making me happy and that im talking to him again then aparently i need to think about you. Because if your my friend then you'd be happy for me. So screw you. If i get hurt again then it will be my fault i know that. Im not stupid. I have liked other people in this god forsaken place, but then i get ready to tell there sorry asses and they are like omg im fucking in love with someone. So i just give up on that. It has happened more than once. So whatever. Im destend to be single. O'well theres plenty of places open in monk hood. lol. Im gonna be the pope and tons of people will rot in hell cause im like the closes thing to god and if i dont like you then sorry. Life sucks for you.
Other than that shit family is going good. Spring break is going on...Blah~ Im doing a lot of nothing. Hanging out with people. Lock-in at church on mon and a have a psych. appt. yup...fun fun.
Life goes on, maybe it dosnt you'll just have to see...
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[09 Mar 2006|08:27pm] |
okay so today was okay. just my normal emo self.
school was fine. boring
Okay for all the people who dont know, i go out with someone. It does seem wierd but i dont care cause ive never been happier in my life and i love'em sooo much. I go out with a kid named corey. (#1 on my top 8 on myspace) he lives in harrisonburg. And since i dont get to see him a lot i get sad so today was one of those kinda days. but its ok. Its realy wired cause he was mad at me one day and another time i felt like i was losing him and i just hurt all over to were i had to go throw up. its wierd. but i dunno...
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[08 Mar 2006|02:26am] |
hey!!
Today was okay. went to ren and mostly hung out with clarissa. i did talk to lily some to. it was fun.
"lily, the test on sat is over at 11:00. So what do you wanna do about it? Cause your lessons are at 11:00 and it will most likely take us an hour to get to your house but still."
myspace wont let me sign on. gosh-
parents are being stupid and think im anerixic, cant spell it. But im not i just only eat when im hungary but im usualy not hungary. lol. i did eat a 100 cal. thing for lunch, some crackers at ren and some mash potatoes today. see i eat...
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[03 Mar 2006|08:33pm] |
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ok so...
This week has been actually okay. Shocking. There was only one day were i was sad, cause i thought corey was mad at me. But he wasnt so its all good.
I was supose to go to Harissonburg tonight to go see a movie and go to dinner with corey and his friends, but i didnt have a ride. For some reason people are scared to drive around a mountain. But some people said if they could drive that they would have taken me. Which i apreciate.
This weekend is going to be boring. Nothing to do. But im going to lilys next weekend and i have that PLAN text also. So next weekend will be busy.
Mom put in an application to foodlion today for me. Cause she wants me to work. Even though i dont want to. But if i get the job then i will get money. So thats good.
Well i gots to go. L8ter
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this is one of the messages he sent me on myspace. isnt it soooo cute. im in love...
so...
I remembered this from a buffy episode and i found it online and i wanna send it to you because it reminds me of you yay!!!
"you start a conversation. It goes great. You like buffy [dustin], she [he] likes you. You spend time together, feelings grow deeper, and one day, without even realizing it, you find you're in love. Time stops, And it feels like the whole world's made for you two, and you two alone, until the day one of you leaves and rips the still-beating heart from the other, who's now a broken, hollow, mockery of the human condition."....except the last part. thats not so fun. but the other stuff....thats how i feel.
I love you!
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Some peopls may think that im a happy kid
I will laugh, smile, and have fun
But on the inside im dieing
Im filled with tears
And all alone in the darkness
A vast, empty, dark room with no one
Im locked away
I just want to be free
And i try ti get out and be in the light
But something always makes me run back to my corner and cry
Then finally someone joins me
He brightens up the room and he brightens up me
But then something has to interfear
And push him away
Not letting him come in and brighten up the room
So im left in the darkness to cry, in my corner
I just want to give up
I'm a slave to the darkness
I'm bound to it
I'll never be let out
And no one else in
Why?
I dont know
But I do know that i want to be brightned up
And i do things to brighten me up
But then something pushes it all away again
So im back again
To my corner in the darkness
Forever to live there
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I walk in and see all the smileing faces
Smileing at the ones they love
Being with them
Everyone has someone
Someone close
Close by
I go to my friends. Even them
Being with someone
All happy
I just sit
Sit and cry inside
Cry that the one i love cant be with me
Cry that everyone is happy and i am sad
I go through the day
Its just the same, all day
No one knows how i truely am
The one inside. The emotions
I get home and call
No answer. Just the tears running down my face
Later i try, and i get an answer
We just sit there and say nothing
The words are flowing through our minds
But nothing but tears come out
Eventually we have to go
A "goodbye" and "love you" ends it
Ends it all
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Hey all!!!
Im at lilys house. Shes dancing. lol
These last few weeks have been crazy and a lot like hell. Family is being a big bitch to me. I hat it so much. But I have someone who makes me sooo happy that it makes me actually want to get up in the morning. And if anyone has a problem with it then they can go fuck off cause im so fucking happy and i dont give a damn what the hell you have to say. Cause Corey makes me happy and if u dont like it then Whatever I dont like you. Got it. Sorry for sounding like a total bitch. I just got emo and when i am i get really bitchy.
But anyways......
Today has been good, so far. School was boring. As usual. But mom actually let me go to Lilys so im happy. And i got to talk to corey last night. The first in like 3 days. Cuae ive been grounded. For nothing.
This weekend im probably doing nothing.
Well thats enough of me. So how are you all doing?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!
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Hey all!
Life is just life. I have to see a shrink again. Blah- But i dont mind. My birthday was on wed. My not so super sweet 16. It was just that. Mom grounded me on my birthday. Yup. I had a girlfriend since 2 thur ago. But we broke up. I didnt realy like her. And i like someone else. It is just to much right now. Im such an emo kid. So how is everyone else doing?? I guess i'll go. L8ter
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[25 Jan 2006|08:34pm] |
Blah!
My life is Blah!
I do live a boring life. Nothing much good happens. And really nothing much interesting happpens either. I've been trying to get on myspace for 30 min. now. But its down or something. STUPID!!!
Today was okay i guess. Hair straightner is still broke. Tear. I talked to clarissa a lot today. Well i do that a lot this semester. =) lol. Jenna's birthday is today. Which is AWSOME!!!!! And mine is in like 15 days. Thats about it.
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[06 Jan 2006|06:04pm] |
Hey!
Today was pretty good. I went to see that play "Cinderela in combat boots" (spelled wrong) It was so funny with Hailey trippen ever sec of the play. lol Im kinda over my haircut but there is this really awsome dude on my myspace and i want my hair to look like that. Its soo cool. Check it out sometime(Its Alex, on my top8) I have to pay another 30 some bucks for the phone bill again. Stupid long distance. Its even long distance to call louisa but not c'ville its so dumb. And its 14 cents a min to call bumpass but10 cents a min to call cali. Anyways... The bus was fun. I took pic with Jessi. well g2g l8ter
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[05 Jan 2006|08:06pm] |
Hey all!
Well today was o.k. Im really sad right now. I just got my hair cut. Its really short (to me). She cut like an inch off. I dont like it. To me i think it looks like im wearing a helmet. But it will grow out. And then one of my new friends on myspace, yesterday sad he was really sad. And when people are sad it makes me sad. Its weird. But other than that im good. I have a project due tomorrow i havent started on. Not good. My birthday is in 35 days. Yeah!!!!! Well i guess thats it. L8ter
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[02 Jan 2006|03:42pm] |
Hello!
Happy New Year to everyone!!!
Today i went to c'ville with mom. We went to the mall and i got some new shoes. There checker board vans. I like them. I love checker boards. I went to starbucks wile mom got her new watch fixed. A Java Chip frapp. Yummmm... Then we went to the whole food store. I LOVE that place. I bought some really good veggie peperonies and some italian bread. That store is pretty exspensive. Then we came home. I have to do a science project that is due on wend. But you have to go to this website and it says its down so i dont know how im gonna do it. But i'll figure it out. Something with the dish is messed up so lifetime wont work. I only want to watch Will & Grace. I love that show. Well i g2g
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